title: TT Actually, today suppose to go and change phone, but didn't want to. Do you think i have the mood..? Sick and she's somehow like couldn't be contacted? Haha... wish she can just online and talk to me....
You never knew you made me sad, you never knew you made me cry, you never knew how my heart felt like. You never knew how much i care for you, you never knew what you said hurts me, you never knew how much i love you. . . . |
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title: -heartbroken- Have you ever felt heartbroken? If no, i shall tell you how it feels. I have been through it many times, for relatives, friends, love ones, things, matters and to me, my precious drawings and love ones. I remembered one day in primary six, my form teacher caught me secretly drawing, she immediately pick up the piece of drawing, tear it into half and throw it into the bin. As usual, i joked that that drawing is nothing to me and made the class laughed. A few minutes later, i broke out into tears, and cried till i sleep that day. That drawing was given by my brother, it was very special to me, and now it's gone, i tried drawing it, but failed, up till now, i still did not tell him about the drawing. And a few years back, i played an online game named Ragnarok, i had a relationship with this girl online. It lasted very long, and i found out about our age difference and her family, so she gradually leave i cried every night, the feeling has no cure, only time, and the medicine is to take deep breathe and cry out loud. Your heart will cramp together, making you gasp for oxygen for the love that is shattered. . . .
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title: stupid Yesterday, went to church in the morning despite i was sick, after that reach home about 3, learned making paper rose on youtube and only make one from 3pm to 6pm+. - - Today, playplayplay Evan came, played awhile. Blogging about my parents, i can't help it but say they are outdated and stupid. Asked me to surf the internet and buy the books, asked them for credit card as needed, they said harh need credit card arh i thought they deliver and then we pay? Then tell me nonono nevermind later use credit card get cheated people will use our credit card go buy things one. Such a big company use our redit card they suffer right? They are freaking outdated not to this but lots of other things. STUPID
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title: BACK! Today, slack whole day till 5pm, start to prepare and go eat dinner. Parents asked me to bring Evan go, what the hell, cause i am going to tell you why the hell. :/ Evan was late, i told him we won't wait for him but he made it in time. Arrived at 5star hotel... this is the reason.... nevermind his already part of my family. Finished eating, phew! Very full. On the car received a message, prayed that it's from her as usual, but it's not. ='( Then when talking to Evan, *1 new message* prayed again, it's from her!^^ lol she's back. Then went to j8 to shop for awhile, actually want to buy a webcam as my old one is wrecked by my auntie's baby.... mum don't want help me pay, then never buy lorh....
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title: xD First, told my mum i had a girlfriend, she said really? And asked me is it those rough and vulgar one? I told her no lah is those guaiguai one. Then i showed my mum her photo on friendster. And she said that my girlfriend is pretty xD lol. My mum actually allow relationship never thought of it. Nevermind, nothing more to write, Jinfa i have updated.
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title: Rebel Specially for you: YingYing
OH ya pampered is it a yes or a no? I kena slapped by so many girls so many times i treat that aas laughing matter. You asked me this so i shall reply you what i felt when girls or other people slapped me. What i typed is no laughing matter is a private estate, not what you think it is? I won't want to argue with you, i did not say it's your fault too, and when i mean walking off happily, i mean that people who have enjoyed themselves here and not obeying STRICTLY to the law which may send me a conplain letter, seriously it's not what you think. From: Rayson |
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title: Done As i said, a Barbecue is supposed to be a happy one not to be RUINED, a person can spoil everything, and Sherye when we were carrying things down to prepare the barbecue, there were so many things, did you offer your help? And when Victoria asked you to help, you were like huh i don't want then walked away, you still can be a PSL? GREAT that's PEICAI's taste for role models, lucky i did not get in girl or it will spoil my holidays with camps and stuffs. Focusing on NPCC not PSL or it will fuck ruin my CCA too.
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title: Another Specially to: YingYing
DID you know why i slapped you? It's not for nothing and it's very meaningful. I didn't know whether your parents pamper you or not, or your statement a slap is a slap. I don't care now, i don't owe you a living, and people around does not too. You tend to scream anywhere you like, and you think scream is no big deal, but you are in a condo! Have you thought of what i told you? About attracting the guards? Not just that i shall continue, residents around that bbq pit most have babies, and when you scream you wake them up somehow! And you know where all those complains go to? ME not you. You all can just happily walk off my condo, while i will be sent a complaint letter. I already had four complains filed to the management, you think it's no big deal? A few more i am going to be sent a lawyer letter being sued by the condo and forced to leave that condo. Have you ever thought that a slap is a slap is nothing to me and my family members moving out and pay the condo for those complains? And my family members would not find a house that fast to stay in and they would all blame me, not YOU. Think, think, you are going too overboard i shall NOT hold back. Specially from: Rayson Ling |
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title: Fuck-off girl Specially to: Sherye
Hey~Hey~ I will cut short about this. First, while i was slapping YingYing, split second, dang i notice you, happily letting other people pulling you down the water. Is it fun? You must have enjoyed! Am i right? And when YingYing walks away, you tried to be a hypocrite! Telling us we still can enjoy? You did enjoy yourself, my dear girl. I blamed it on others! But it's 40% your fault. Cause you said when you changed, you can get as wet as possible! But when i tried to pull you in, you, being a hypocrite again, resisted and you told YingYing no matter what, she must not let you in the water! What fucking rubbish is this? You got wet in the end! And now you said in my tagboard that people will change, just don't repeat your mistake again, oh great, may i know who are you referring to? Yourself? Think about it my dear girl. Specially from: Rayson Ling |
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title: Falling My confidence is deteriorating, my courage, my morale, my cheerful life, it's all dropping. Yesterday, made YingYing cried, which i swore not to make any girl cry since Primary six as i hate to see them cry. I broke my promise, my old self is coming back i don't want it. Overslept today and did not go to school, first time in my lifetime, i overslept. i can't believe it, FIRST time ever. And how could i? I want to relax, but i can't, friend's chalet is actually today, luckily they change it, or i will ruin it all. i ruined the bbq yesterday and i blamed it on others. I am a fucking self-centered person. And, i should have listened to Jinfa, i am such a failure, i shouldn't have joined PSL camp. Although i had fun there, i think i was like a boss and people had to listen to me. I made a fool out of myself there. I regretted going to the camp. I seriously regretted.
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