Now.. some things really left me in a dilemma and set me thinking over and over again.
Really wanna like.. talk. Considering the facts.. My chances aren't really high. And I have a feeling.. history will repeat itself. And I am very afraid of it.. Because it's not something I think I can control.. Even if we are friends again.. It'll be hard to be like what we used to be.
I seriously need to do some meditating on what's supposed for me to get angry for and what's not. Life's so hard recently, I have always been trying to look at myself from people's angle. I just can't figure out anything. Blank, my mind just turn blank. Even sometimes when I smile, am I just smiling for the sake to show people that I am happy or am I really happy? I don't even know. Really, I don't know. When can I see and learn more things about life, and be more mature?

My life is like a mess, just like a completed jigsaw puzzle which just got destroyed. But I am trying my best to fix and place the pieces back together. Slowly, with time, patience and perseverance, I am sure that my life will turn out to be as beautiful as this jigsaw puzzle once was.


May will be over real soon. First week starts with a holiday, followed by 2 days of lesson and 2 days of exam. Then, the next week will be a 5 days exam, and holiday for two days for the 3rd week. 4th week, 4 days and it's a long summer vacation. I wished this june holiday will not be a slack-away, hope there will be delightful events lining up..

Friends.. give me a chance if there's ever a day shining with fate.