For my future self...

Don't know what I've been doing lately. So now I can't get into a Poly, so I can't know more people, have club activities, and slack 3 more years. It's all about haven't gone through enough right? Or is it?

Recently, have been missing my late grandma. Don't know why. Probably that occur because I am human.

Life, what is it? You live, goes through up and down, get education, get a job, have a family, create many great memories, then die. Let's imagine reincarnation is a fact, so when you die, you forget everything, and start your life all over. What's the meaning to this? Guess nobody knows.

Maybe life is getting more mundane, that money, love, anything and everything else doesn't matters anymore. 10 years down the road, what will it be like? Seriously curious. Cause I ain't doing a thing about it.

So love, does it last forever? Because I can't seem to forget you, or move on. It's not like I want to, if possible, why not? Or is it that I haven't got a chance to meet another one?

Have been quite cheerful on the outside these few days, inside, I am miserable. It's like I still lack of something, or lost something. Feels like everyone moved on, like a 100m sprint, some finished, some at 50m, some at 20m but still trying. But I am still on the starting line, not even in position.

Resumed drawing recently, don't know, inspiration? Vibes? Lunar New Year's nearing. Waiting for poly letter. If I didn't succeed, it's either private diploma or Lasalle.

Alright, gotta sleep.. Hope all will be better the next time I blog.

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